It sucks to have to explain yourself to someone, when they already like you, but they criticize you in spite of liking you. I mean, my work. People fall in love with one image and they criticize the rest, or say “‘i’ve seen you do better”. Obviously this is shallow thinking, assuming an artist can only do one thing in his life, like we are all super heroes with one gift. Well i believe we are all capable of pursuing many paths and having a colorful experience in each.
In a world so competitive, so many people are caught up in finding their niche. This is more or less normal these days, and in any society, its the path of greatest assurance of acceptance. I don’t just want acceptance, nor do i always require it, but I do want to be important, and that means, not standing still, and not following in anothers footsteps or shadow, and being realistic about when i’m doing so, because even that, is inevitable in a modern congested world.
But innovation can and does occur. An artist can do something new, and different, all the time, or at least much of the time. There’s always areas where new innovations share ground with past innovations. I can’t be proud of repeating the past, but i can be proud for using what i have, to build something new, even if those things are discoveries from someone else. I can and will build on what was laid down before me. I think this is acceptable and natural, as our own DNA demonstrates. After all, we are all interlaced into the same world of art and communication and current events.
So back to explaining myself. The world is rampant with assumptions and judgments. People with talent and value are often put in little boxes and labeled very incompletely or erroneously. On top of that, cruel and crude labels settle and reside on the names of those who have much to offer but are covered in the soot and sediment of hateful lies and presumptuous speculation that soon becomes accepted as fact, simply because it’s pervasive and repeated.
So this is why we explain ourselves, tho self explanation comes from the truest possible source, yourself, it’s not trusted because of all the lies and energy against you. I’m not sure this can be helped. I think your legacy defends itself in your absence by the words of your supporters against your rivals.
Those who have dirty minds see and assume dirty things. Those who have deceitful minds assume others are deceitful. Those who prey on the weak, assume others do the same, because this is the world they know best and its the best way they know how to be, so how can they assume anything better of others? People who speak out and have a loud squeaky voice are often those who aren’t aware of how stupid they look by pointing out ghosts in the system. They want to see corruption.They want to use their expertise on filth to sound off and look important the best way they know how.
And this is why I have to sometimes be very clear and explain myself. The world is rampant with assumptions.
So when we explain ourselves its viewed as weak as if we have a guilty conscience or we feel attacked and weak and as if we need more support and followers. So it brings on even more criticism by those with undisciplined minds.
With all this said, I’ll have a new post soon talking about my inner motivations and my art and my expressions and why i do things the way i do.